Originally Posted On July 9, 2022 I was not about to allow any to see me naked or touch me without my consent. After fighting with the nursing staff for hours and sleeping in the community room couches – the nurse Tyrell finally convinced me to go ahead with the skin check because he promised to find me a female nurse to do it. So, I agreed to do the skin check, aka letting a complete stranger probe my naked body to make sure that I wasn’t hiding weapons in my vagina. Haha, b

Originally Posted On June 18, 2022 They took my clothes. I wasn’t allowed to have drawstrings, and Ty’s sweatshirt that I was wearing had them, along with the sweats I had on, overtop of my orange v-cut lacy silk nightgown. Since I had been taken from my home unexpectedly, in the middle of the night, those were the clothes I had to grab on my way out. At first, they asked me if I was wearing clothes under my hoodie, but when I took off my sweatshirt, they thought my orange ni

Originally Posted On May 16, 2022 My handcuffs were pulling tight as I tried to wiggle my way out of the back of the cop car. Police officer John had come around the back side of the car and opened the door for me. His face showed compassion, and although he wasn’t exactly smiling, his expression was that of a concerned father rather than a domineering authority figure. “I’m supposed to keep these on you till you get checked in, but ahh. Come on then.” He unlocked the cuffs,

Originally Posted On May 28, 2022 (Again, I’m honoring the legal advice I’ve been given, and I have chosen not to use anyone’s last names due to the lawsuit I’m pursuing/engaged in) After I clicked the record button on my phone, which was sitting on my lap facing the ceiling, a man named Michael R. appeared on the Telehealth screen. It was after 4:30 in the morning. I let him know that I disagreed with having someone do a mental health test when they had been up for 24 hours

Originally Posted On May 1, 2022 Mother’s Day is coming up on Sunday, May 8th, and this will be a very different experience for me than my first one last year. I’ve held off on writing about this topic due to some legal restrictions, but I’ve been given the go-ahead from my attorneys to tell my story, without last names, since I’m currently involved in a lawsuit against (Dr. Rob [REDACTED], his wife “Dr.” Ann [REDACTED]) and The [REDACTED] Pavilion center at [REDACTED] Hospit

Originally Posted: April 17, 2022 Before starting this blog, I ask God/Infinite Intelligence to pour through me and onto this page. I ask to know how to articulate what I need to say, to let love express itself now, and by doing so, to heal and harmonize all unlike itself. I ask for higher help, and I ask that whoever needs to read this, or hear this song is attracted to it Divinely and under Grace in perfect ways. Thank you, Amen. (And women and children! Haha) I’m just goin

Originally Posted: April 2, 2022 By the time this blog post is published, I’ll be in Puerto Rico with some of my lady friends wearing bikinis, sipping sparkling rose, and lounging in our beachy Airbnb. I’m starting to pack tonight because now that I’m a mom, I realize I have to do it in 5-minute increments when I get the chance. It’s weird, too, because as much as I’m looking forward to my time away, I know I will miss my Gracie girl so much. Last October, I spent 16 days in

Originally Posted: March 19, 2022 Okay. I’m back and still resistant to writing this, but I’m going to do it anyway. At first, it was just going to be Natalee that moved to Nashville, and then the ultimatum set in. It wasn’t just the threat of breaking up our duo “Falk” – I was also told they would take my car even though it was mine. It was in the “company name.” In addition to that, all of the royalties I was supposed to get the following year were jeopardized, and I was to

Originally Posted: March 5, 2022 I want to jump ship. As I think to myself about what I plan to write, it makes me want to close down my computer and do anything else. This is hard. Writing about something that is still so unresolved is probably the very thing I should be doing to resolve it, yet it feels agonizing in a dull, under the surface kind of way. I set a timer of 20 minutes to sit down and write through this because it’s still so triggering, yet I’m opening the spac

Originally Posted on February 19, 2022 “Can you push beyond the typical surface lovin’ that fades, Try to meet me in unusual, here the edges are frayed, Give me honesty, something real, Cuz, you know you crave how it could feel, Finding meaning beneath moments fleeting, Let our darkest parts heal, So just give me all you’ve got, Baby, open up your heart, Let me in, past your skin, Under pleasure and your pain, Where your loneliness remains, Baby give… Let’s begin, To Breakthr